Presents
Indiscretion
by
Tonya Lampley
Genre: Fiction/ African American/ Contemporary Woman
Release Date: August 15, 2013
Digital ISBN 13:978-1-939217-80-6 ISBN 10: 1-939217-80-6
Print ISBN 13:978-1-939217-79-0 ISBN 10: 1-939217-79-2
Indiscretion
One careless night and a man’s life is changed forever.
Damon Harris wants
a better life than the one he’s currently living. He has a penchant for trouble
and a trail of mistakes behind him, but inside he can feel a greater call
urging him on to the man he knows he can become. He marries the ideal woman in
hopes it might settle him down. But change is hard. Stuck in a self-created
prison where the only warden is himself, he’ll do just about anything to break
free.
A few drinks, a beautiful girl…was it worth it?
Tonya Lampley’s first novel was titled A Taste of Love and was a National
Indie Excellence Book Awards finalist.
She lives in Ohio with her husband and is currently working on her next book.
For more information about Tonya, please visit her on the web at
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Indiscretion Excerpt:
Damon
sat in a red-velvet bishop’s chair in one of the back rooms of St. Augustine’s
Cathedral in downtown Chicago. The 100 year-old church’s renowned stained glass
window, featuring the Messiah in an array of colors, hung high above him and
gently filtered the October sunlight. His eyes rested on the tiny dust
particles floating in the air, a useless attempt to distract him from his
thoughts.
Three
rapid taps on the heavy mahogany door broke through the silence and jarred him
from contemplation.
“You
ready?” a deep voice asked. Damon recognized the voice of Kurt, who would be
his brother-in-law in a matter of minutes. A pretty stand-up guy, in Damon’s
opinion. Looked nothing like his sisters, and wasn’t all that close to them,
but he had stepped in per Carmen’s request, to fill the role of best man when
Damon argued with the original one—his life-long friend Craig. Tempers flared
when Craig told Damon he was making the biggest mistake of his life. The
conversation ended with Craig refusing to be a part of the wedding. They had
since made up, but Craig stood by his original protest. Kurt being in the
wedding made Carmen happier, anyway, Damon mused.
Someone
knocked again.
“I’ll
be there in a minute.” Damon responded. He walked over to the full-length
mirror to give himself a once over. The black tuxedo that Carmen picked out
hugged the contours of his svelte body. The white shirt gleamed against his
smooth ebony skin. He noticed his white bow tie was crooked and slowly
straightened it. His palms were moist as he ran them down the silk stripe of
his pants trying to remove the uncomfortable feeling.
He
rubbed his freshly cut hair, checked his nose and the corners of his mouth. In
a few moments, he would enter the sanctuary. He brought Carmen’s image to mind.
Good. Sweet. Settled. She possessed an aura of comfort—like baked bread or warm
milk. The kind of woman that could hopefully bring him the peace he had been
searching for.
Kurt
pummeled the door this time. “Everyone is waiting. Carmen’s starting to get
nervous. You were supposed to be out here a half hour ago.”
Damon
looked down at his shoes, patent leather, polished to a spit shine. Was he
doing the right thing? He cared deeply for Carmen, but was it love?
What
he wanted was to feel normal, to be satisfied with his life. The ghost of his
past emerged again, as it often did, and reminded him that he had made a mess
of things—two children by two different women, and a short stint in jail. The
reminder rode in on a tide of regret.
He
heard someone trying to turn the worn iron doorknob, but he had locked it. It
wiggled back and forth desperately and he could hear mumbling on the other
side. The rhythm of his breath sped up and a wave of warmth rose up from his
feet. He thought of Rachel, the mother of his second son, and the words that
spewed from her perfect mouth three years ago when she broke up with him—I can’t be with someone who’s content to do
nothing with their life. And when she met Evan Kilgore, M.D. at the
hospital where she was taken the night she broke her foot playing softball, she
banished Damon to the “friend zone.” He accepted his punishment; anything to
still be a part of her life. He never thought she would marry him. He never
forgave himself for losing her and wasn’t about to make the same bet and lose
twice. He had to marry Carmen. If he didn’t, he might lose her too.
“Go
get the key.” He heard Kurt say to someone on the other side of the door, along
with another knock.
It
was time. Damon stood silent in the room. He expanded his chest and forced air
deep into his lungs, but it still felt like he was suffocating. His hands
registered a slight tremor and as he straightened his tie a second time, he
felt a bead of sweat trickle down his temple. He grabbed the teal handkerchief
out of his pocket and blotted it. His legs felt heavy, like someone cemented
them to the floor. Why did doing the right thing feel so uncertain? He closed
his eyes and tried to steady his breathing. In a few minutes, it would be over.
He willed his legs to start moving. Kurt, and Carmen’s sister, Cathy, lunged
forward into the room as he opened the door.
The
church’s pot-bellied groundskeeper walked up behind them carrying a large metal
ring, holding several antique keys. He rubbed his shiny dark beard.
“Ev-ry-thin’okay?” he asked with his bushy eyebrows raised.
“We
got it, sir. Thanks.” Kurt said to the man who looked around the room, then
shrugged before walking away. Kurt turned his attention to Damon. “The wedding
planner is going nuts! We thought something had happened to you.”
Cathy
huffed, “No we didn’t.” She squinted
at Damon. “Why don’t you just admit it and save us all a lot of trouble.”
He
looked right through Cathy. “I’m good, man. I just needed a minute, that’s
all.” Damon brushed past Cathy, dressed in a silly Cinderella-looking, teal,
taffeta dress, and lightly grazed her gloved arm. She gritted her teeth as she
placed her hand into the center of his back and shoved him forward. He stumbled
three un-willful steps at the forceful blow before he managed to get control of
his feet. He closed his eyes and drew in a slow deep breath, taking a moment to
gather himself—to deny himself the delightful thought of shoving her back—his
mother had raised him better than that. He stretched out his arms and adjusted
his shirtsleeves, checking his cuff links. Unfortunately, she was part of the
deal.
He
continued down the hall and opened the double doors to the sanctuary, where 200
guests sat in pews adorned with teal bows, and music from the harp player
greeted him. Damon and Carmen argued for two days over the harp player—a total
waste of money in his opinion, as was all of it—the courthouse would have
suited him just fine. He walked past the harp player strumming like a fool,
down the red aisle runner and took his place at the altar in front of the robed
Reverend Mallory and the barrage of burning candles.
“Are
you ready, Son?” Reverend Mallory was a large man, his voice even louder. The
question he asked reverberated through the church and came to rest in Damon’s
ears.
Damon
gave a nod. Reverend Mallory opened his Bible and the wedding planner raised
her bony arm toward the back of the church, cuing her assistant to start the
music. Time seemed to suspend as the remaining eight members of the bridal
party entered the sanctuary, waltzing to Carmen’s careful selection of Luther
Vandross’s Here and Now, and took
their places at the front of the church. Damon was avoiding Cathy’s glare when
the collective sound of 200 people standing grabbed his attention. When he
looked up, Carmen stood in the doorway, engulfed in a sea of white. Tulle
cascaded all around her. She made eye contact with Damon almost immediately and
smiled. He wasn’t sure what he was feeling, but he knew her well enough to read
the look on her face—that grin and the beam in her eye spoke of her happiness.
And when he saw how happy she was, despite everything, he was happy for her.
Her hand reached out for his and she took her place beside him.
Reverend
Mallory loudly cleared his throat, and began the vows. Carmen recited hers first. Damon silenced
the voice inside his head that hinted at the fact, he might not be sure of this
marriage. But there were so many people. So much money spent. Too much to lose
not to get married.
“Damon,
do you take Carmen to be your lawful wedded wife? Do you promise to love and
cherish her, in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer, for better, for
worse, and forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto her for so long as you
both shall live?
"I
do." Damon adjusted his tie, secretly loosening it. The promises felt
really big. He had a long history of preserving his own self-interests. He
wanted that to be behind him now. He accepted the ring from Kurt and placed it
on Carmen’s finger.
“Do
you together promise, in the presence of your friends and family, that you will
at all times, and in all circumstances, conduct yourselves toward one another as husband and wife?”
“We
do.” He muttered as he searched his heart for certainty. Carmen’s voice broke
through his with full conviction.
Reverend
Mallory smiled. “You may now kiss your bride.”
Damon
lifted Carmen’s veil and looked into her eyes. He needed her. He needed her in order to become the man he wanted
to be. She would settle him into a normal life, where he would go to work at
his job as a car salesman, come home and eat dinner with her, and go to the
grocery store on the weekend. Normal. He grabbed her around the waist and
kissed her as a symbol to everyone, and to himself, that this was his new life.
